Sunday, January 31, 2010
Today I went and got my blood drawn. T.J. and I had a delicious lunch at Grey Bros. It is so much food, but really good. Then we had a couple other stops. I just didn't feel very well after all that, so I took a nap. I just finished editing my job, so that is a big relief. I got some of these today. I was hoping for a yummy snack b/c I love York peppermint patties, but they are really rich. There is a lot of dark chocolate in them and I can only eat a couple at a time.
My appointment is in the morning, so I will blog whatever I find out once I get home. I have tomorrow off, so that will be nice to not have to worry about having a job later in the day. That's about all I've got for now. I am going to go and stare in the fridge/cupboards to try to decide what to eat. Nothing has sounded good the last couple days!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
I am much better today and not so emotional. Every time I talked to someone about what was happening yesterday, I got all choked up and couldn't talk very well (I think that's termed "ugly cry"). I figured I would just wait until I wasn't so weepy to talk on the phone:)
I had a lot of bleeding yesterday. It was more than spotting, but not heavy, either. It was bright red, which is what my doctor saw while checking my cervix and then went into the miscarriage talk. It tapered off last night and today I haven't had any yet. I hope this means it's stopped!
I don't know how to put into words how I feel. I don't feel nauseous, but my stomach feel tight inside. It's not crampy, but kind of hurts. I have some work I am going to try to do today. I haven't been very productive this week and I have a couple of jobs that are due soon. Then I plan on taking up residence again on the couch and taking it easy.
T.J. has been great and I felt much better once he got home from work last night. As I am sure you can imagine, he is taking very good care of me and making me smile and laugh, which helps big time!
Friday, January 29, 2010
I know that a lot of people wait until after the first trimester to put it out there that they are pregnant, just in case something like this happens. I am not like them and I can't help it. It is so exciting when you think you are pregnant and all you want to do is shout if from the mountain top. This is our third time being pregnant and I have come to realize that you want people to know. At least I do.
It is like a blanket wrapped around you when all your friends and family show you their love and support. And you don't feel so alone. That is the last thing I want -- to sit at home alone, feeling all alone, and not have anyone understand what it is that I am going through.
Since this is our third time being pregnant, I haven't felt real confident that it would work out. I mean, why would it? The other two times didn't. But when we saw that there was a fetus and that it had heart activity, I felt somewhat reassured. That maybe this time would be different. The doctor told me that your chances of miscarrying are 10-15% before you have an ultrasound showing anything. But once you have an ultrasound showing fetal heart activity, your chances go down to 3% for miscarrying. I hope we're not in that 3%.
My bleeding is an obvious ominous sign. Today I have been feeling some cramping and not feeling any nausea. They drew labs today to test my hormones. I go back on Sunday to do the same. Then I go to the doctor on Monday to compare the results. If my hormones levels don't double between the two, then it's a very bad sign.
The doctor said that everything could straighten out and be okay. Or it might not. I just have a gut feeling that it's not going to be okay. She gave me all the warnings -- like if I have super heavy bleeding or am in a lot of pain, then I have to go to the ER. I can take Tylenol but not Motrin b/c Motrin will make me bleed more.
I know that a miscarriage is usually because there is something wrong with the fetus. It is nature's way of handling it. It just sucks because this time there actually was a baby. This time was different. I was so hopeful because I was sick and tired and felt horrible. I knew that with those symptoms it was as close to normal as I have come.
If I do miscarry, this is number three for us. The doctor explained when I met with him on Tuesday that if this does result in a third miscarriage that I would then be considered a high risk pregnancy in the future. There is a lot of blood work and tests they will run eight weeks after I have the miscarriage. I just pray that there we will find some answers.
If this turns around and is okay, it will be a miracle. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
He said that everything looked good. If we were at high risk for miscarrying, he would do lots of tests and maybe have me take a baby aspirin every day. But since this pregnancy looks good and the first two blighted ovums were so very different from what I have been feeling like, he didn't seem too concerned.
He didn't say anything about the cysts, so I asked him about those. He then asked me if I took Clomid, which I haven't. He said that he thinks I produced multiple eggs. I have three cysts. Thank goodness I don't have three or four babies in there!!! YIKES!
I have to go back in a week for my exam and introductory appointment. Then I go back in four weeks for an ultrasound.
Today I haven't felt very well. A few of you have told me about Unisom and B-6, so I am going to try that tonight. Hopefully I will wake up tomorrow feeling like a new woman! I love getting any tips, tricks, or things to NOT try, so if you have any for me, please let me know.
We also really wanted to thank everyone for you kind words that we have received over the last couple days. This is so exciting for us and really seems unreal. I was almost convinced that it wouldn't ever happen to us. It has and we couldn't be more grateful.
In case you were wondering, our due date is September 20, 2010, and we won't be finding out the sex of the baby. :)
Monday, January 25, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Playing Big Buck Hunter -- my new favorite bar game. $5.00 gets you lots of game play. So much so that my shooting finger was tired and a little sore afterwards.
Snuggling up in our Snuggies.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
I am beat today, just feeling tired and not very creative. So what do I fall back on? Wedding photos. Why? Because this week on Facebook is "Wedding Photo Week." Usually I don't play along with all the little things people post on there, but I did it this time. I went back to the archives on Shutterfly and found these oldies but goodies. So today in all my laziness and total lack of creativity, you get pics and some wedding facts.
Time flies when you are having fun! And believe me, we are having loads of it! T.J. is my best friend and I love being with him everyday! I can't wait for our ten year anniversary. I am thinking we need to go somewhere awesome to celebrate!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
- Stop procrastinating!
- Read or listen to 20 books this year
- Eat more fruit and veggies
- Get on a schedule
- a) Work out and get up at the same time
- b) Schedule hours I am going to work
- c) Go to bed at a consistent time each night.
So this is all that I could come up with so far. It isn't too many, so maybe I can really focus on them and accomplish all of them!!
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
My day today got started a little earlier than planned. I was scheduled for a job at 3:00 p.m. and got a call at 9:30 a.m. for a job at the office. I had to finish getting ready quick and ran out the door. Lucky for me, I got an unexpected lunch date with Paradise!
Tonight is book club night. We are meeting for dinner at Noodles and Company to talk about The House at Sugar Beach. After that we are going to go and watch The Lovely Bones. I am really looking forward to having a girls night out, trying a new restaurant, and watching a movie.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
I lost my map tacks in the move and I haven't upadated it in a while.
The other thing I buy are these lapel pins. I put them around the edge.
I also like to get these smashed pennies:
I don't have too many so far. This is a fairly new collection:)
Once of my favorite things that I buy on a trip are these frames. I only have two. I didn't see any in Florida that were this type. There was one in the Vegas airport when we went there, but it was too pricey for me:) Every time we go somewhere new, I like to look for them. I would like to someday have a bunch of these different destination frames.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
PS -- if you haven't been to the Little Miss Matched website before, you should check it out! And they have super cute baby stuff on sale right now. I ordered some for gifts to have on hand.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Mom also made this cute little mat for under the doggy dishes. It is so cute and soaks up the water better than what we had before.
Today I finished the laundry and got some work done. I am meeting T.J. tonight at Wal-Mart to go grocery shopping. We have NOTHING to eat in our house! Tomorrow I have a job in Lawrenceburg, Indiana, which is about a two hour drive, so I will get lots of book listening time in!
Speaking of books, I haven't blogged about our book club in a while. With the holidays and everything we just skipped December. We still read the book, just didn't get together. The two books that we are currently on is The Lovely Bones and The House at Sugar Beach. Next week we are meeting to go watch The Lovely Bones and talk about The House at Sugar Beach. They are both very good books!
Monday, January 11, 2010
I have laundry going, went to the chiropractor this afternoon, made a pasta salad, and right now am uploading pics into Shutterfly. I am exhausted after getting up so early this morning. Mom, Rhonda, Keriann & Derrick are driving back to Iowa. They should be there about 9:30 our time. I'm sure they've had a looooooooooong day!
We got to pick up the doggies today from Katie's! We missed them so much. Mike & Julie came out here for the week and watched them and then Katie watched them last night. It was a long time to be away from them!!
Once I got home, I had a couple of fun packages waiting for me. One of them was this cute bow from Joy's Hope: My other package was this set of four prints from Jaime Beitler! The giveaway was for three and Jaime threw another one in too. How awesome?!? I need to get some frames for them!!!!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Once we were done, we were, of course, starving so we ate at Elephant Bar. It was sooo good! I wish there was one in Indy! Then we made a couple other stops looking for shoes for Derrick, but the hunt was unsuccessful. On our way home we stopped and got a red box movie -- District 9. Then we got DQ. YUM! What a fun day!! Here is some of my loot I got. The pics are bad b/c they are with my iPhone and it's not too bright in here with the lamps.
Friday, January 8, 2010
Tonight we had tickets to a pirate show. It was very entertianing and good food. Keriann got picked to go help with a competition. Then T.J. and Derrick got picked to go and do some stuff in the show.